Monday, November 16, 2009

lets get deeper into number 5...sense i spent today with her

so today i got to go shopping with number 5 were actually talking and being bff like.it was really fun and all but like idk the whole time i kept thinking "why cant i be with you?" well it sucked.i tried talking to her i started crying and we started to fight...it was horrible.i explained to her what was going on...it isnt going to well i figure i should just be a good bff...is that a good idea??How do you think she feels?what do you thinks gonna happen?I mean idk i loves her but dating her is so not in my plans...i wuv my bf.yet, idk her ex is like oober lovey dovey with her wich bothers me esp sense he and i used to be good freinds...also she has a bf(barley)and well shes morman and i have no problem with other religions its all good to me but her mom is like strict and would kill her if she knew...shes scared her mom allready knows and ahhh!!! im getting flustered ill get back to this later.

AM i just making excuses why we cant be together?thats what it sounds like...ug i need some advice.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hi again, i can tell u just what i went thru with my bff. Im 19 now and it feels like a life time ago yet thinking about it it feels like yesterday when im thinking about it now! Anyway u r really brave and sound like a strong person and ur only 16, so be proud of that. But now that u r having so many feelings and stuff u need to be careful this can back fire on u too. It sounds like ur biggest crush is with ur friend O and that she had the same feelings back(sort of) right? U asked what should u do about this bff? I dont hear u saying that she feels thae same back to u in that way? idk but what were u fighting about? Has she ever said she likes u in that way? U knoew she may be confused by what u what from her. Its brave to tell her u want to be lovers and stuff but r u sure she is thunking like that? U well end up losing her if u r pushing her and she has no feelings for u romanticly. Like i said u sound alot like i was in high school but now im in college and i am a lot more careful and i have a better sence to not push my feelings on my girlfriends because i have lost some really good griends, when all they wanted was friendship!! I hope that makes sense? I guess im confused alittle because i dont know more about what happened why u two started fighting etc... what makes u think this friend wants to take it to that level? So U were saying u got hickeys from ur boyfriend? Maybe she say them and is mad at u? Talk to u soon!!! Hang in there!!!